Tuesday, June 17, 2008
Elham is heading off on an adventure - a true test of her being nearly an adult... flys to NYC on Thursday -for four days in the huge city and then a week driving home the southern route on the way home... She and her friend Cayla are driving her father's car across country and going to see as much of America as possible... I now we give our children wings.. and i know she has to test them - for strength and durability - all this i know and get... just do not like it - I really think the true test is in my wings... will they stretch far enough to keep her safe when danger crepts in? Will they support her when she is sad and lonely? Will they flutter by at just the right time to remind her that all is well and she has all the right stuff to do whatever is before her? Will they arrive at just the right time to nudge her forward and be there to celebrate a truly cool moment? Will they hold me up when i feel my heart break as she grows up and heads into this crazy old wonderful, wacky world! I see the excitement in her face... the months of planning.. the intense search of all the goofy things they want to see and do.. the endless chatter that has come from her in preparation for this trip... She is very mindful of my fretting and has scheduled calls with me and will text and check in frequently. This trip is as much about me growing and letting go and trusting the universe that i have enveloped her in for all these years.. as it is about my sweet Elham going out and finding her way home, safely! I have run through all the possibilities of drama that could occur - she is full of information and wise facts... NOW i must let my wings spread and send her on her way... Big test for this momma bear... Elham is my counterpart in this world. We think alike - we bounce ideas off each other - our lives are connected in ways i never knew possible.. She is amazing - i stand and watch her gather herself for this trip and am awed by her take on life. She is ready. Time to fly - time for both of us to fly... hope my wings are big and sturdy enough to hold me up... I Feel a big huge need for some serious fairy dust right about now...be well! wendy
Posted by imelwind3 at 8:48 PM
Wednesday, May 28, 2008
our new backyard friend...
who would have thought that in the middle of Salt lake City we would have such a great fun night visitor. A raccoon. He is big and full of himself. He climbs in to the backyard from the tree tops and for awhile was dumping over Da's buckets of bird food - until one night Molly, our dog heard him and raised the alert that something, or someone was in the backyard.... so finally with flash light in hand we spotted him up to his shenanigans trying to bust up the bird food storage... he looked at us like 'have you never seen a racoon before?' and kept on going... so every night now we have his company in our backyard.. he is big and cute and does not seem to mind us watching like little children through our bedroom window to see what he does. We have decided to put food out for him so he leaves the bird stuff alone and he is content with our choices... We woke mom and elham up to see him - had to share the middle of the night fun! In a world that is so fast and so full of so many new and fancy electronic gadgets there is wonder to be found in the sight of a raccoon making his nightly visit to our yard... it gives us great stories to tell and he is hurting no one.. so we hope he continues. It is a piece of the wild coming Right to us and that is so fun.... We think is very smart to pick us as we will not bother him or disturb him and just let him be.... He is a gift to us!
Posted by imelwind3 at 1:49 PM
Mom just returned from a trip to Minnesota and Missouri - she visited her sister In Pipestone and my sister in Missouri! She came home full of stories and a happiness about her that was refreshing to see. She has worked very hard at getting well - so this trip was a true test of how far she has come since December. She and Lucille trekked into the past - went to their old school in Verdi - visited people and did lots of talking, catching up! They visited Aunt Ramona graveside and spoke of her memories and how she touched not only them but everyone she knew. Mom planted a beautiful geranium for her and went back to find it eaten off - my guess the deer enjoyed the gift..and aunt Ramona was smiling though it all. The nieces and nephews visited and shared their current stories. All of those tickled mom and have given her new stories to tell now. There is something to be said about submerging yourself in the heartland, the farmlands of America where you grew up. They drove up to the old farm were they were born and found it closed up and being refurbished. What a sight that must be. That white star on that big ole barn that could be seen for miles is a sight forever emblazoned in all of our hearts that have been there and seen it. Mom talks with that little accent that happens to you when you spend anytime in Minnesota - she looked at crops in the fields and flowers blooming and has had much report about the way things are. her happiest picture memory was seeing uncle chuck on his tractor out in the field - doing what he loves best and not letting age set his limits. Her trip down memory lane rejuvenated her and has brought a smile to her face that will not soon go away - for that i am so thankful. She found life with Pam and Phil so good - Pam's happy teaching at the local college along with keeping two churches going. Phil is busy being the lawn man for many different people and so happy at it. So for two weeks mom went and submerged herself in the land she loves and always has. She was surrounded by people who love her and she Loves them in return - it was More than a vacation - it was a return to her roots... the place she started to become the wonderful mom that she is... you can take carol out of the country but you cannot take the country out of carol - and the past two weeks proved it.... the road to memory lane was shared with her sister and i would have given anything to be a fly on the wall as they laughed and chatted endlessly about the wonderful lives they both have!
Posted by imelwind3 at 1:21 PM